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A little medical update

(may contain TMI and peanuts)

As I told you all in a previous post, I saw my doctor on Monday about depression and anxiety. She put me on Lexapro, and, while I'm sure the drug hasn't had time to make much of an impact in two whole days, I do feel a lot better. I'm maybe a little bit hyper. It may be that my brain is starting to function at a normal pace as sort of like when you think there's one more stair at the top of a flight, it's overcompensating. I've certainly been less cynical, less frustrated, and more at ease. It's kind of strange. I catch myself having done something like... giggling, and I'm amazed. Part of me wonders if this might be part placebo effect. I know there hasn't been time for the drug to work its magic on me, and yet I do feel better. Maybe it's a bit of hope in the fact that I was able to ask for help.

There has been another problem that's had me worried, and was the actual primary reason I called the doctor. Recently, I noticed that my left breast had become larger and was tender and that the ductal mass was quite hard and painful. It really reminded me of how it felt when I was first on the hormones and budding, as it were. Anyway, the doctor set up an appointment for me with the Breast Imaging Clinic here in the hospital. They did a mammogram, which was a strange experience, and I must say it wasn't as bad as people make out, although the part where they did the special focus on the affected area was a bit pinchy and hurty. Thanks be to the nurse who called with the appointment time who told me to take some IB before coming. After that, the radiologist wanted me to go to ultrasound so they could get a different view of the densities in the tissue. They have a warmer pocket for the gel. It was also a strange and novel experience for me. Not uncomfortable at all. Then there was the wait while the radiologist reviewed all the images. He came in and said that he didn't see anything that looked like a lump or mass that could indicate a cancer (which matched up with my doctor's and my tactile exams). So, given a clean bill of health, or at least my boobies were. I'll be following up with my doctor in a few weeks about the Lexapro, and we'll review all this then. As you might imagine, it is a big weight off my mind. My mother had a small breast cancer and had a lumpectomy with radiation and chemotherapy, so you can imagine that was only increasing my dread. I'm very much relieved at the diagnosis.

Also, October is National Breast Cancer Awareness Month. Don't take chances. If you notice a sudden change or feel a lump, call to see your doctor. I'm glad I did.

Oh, and after that, I thought about going back home and getting maybe another hour or two of sleep, but I didn't do so. I actually went to the DoT's Licensing Station and renewed my license. No more restrictions! Woot! Then I went to the yarn shop, stitched for a bit, then went to work. I didn't take the path of most sleep or fewest people. That's fantastic! It's amazing how not-sad I am. What's more is that the happiness I feel about being not-sad only makes the not-sad better. It's been a long time since I really felt okay, like I could really be alright. It gives me hope, and that helps, too. ^_^



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Oct. 4th, 2007 05:58 am (UTC)
Oct. 4th, 2007 06:34 am (UTC)
Thanks, sweetie! We should get together before you go, and not just so I can drop off that DVD. Any update on your plans yet? You've been pretty quiet on here. Probably pretty busy, I expect. I should take you out to lunch.
Oct. 4th, 2007 03:35 pm (UTC)
Quiet 'cause I have not much of an update! Condo's on the market, but there's not too much interest in it. Terrible time to be selling. But the local office closes completely in mid-November, so I think we'll have to be out of here by then. Not looking forward to the possibility of two mortgages. :(

But anyway... my schedule is very free form, so if you want to get together for lunch before you head to work, I am most probably available!
Oct. 4th, 2007 09:53 pm (UTC)
Aw, I'd offer to buy ('cause I really like the place) but I don't think I should be planning any such big decisions while I'm adjusting to the meds, even if I could afford it. Plus moving's a big ol' p.i.t.a.

I need to learn to get up before noon for things other than finding out if I have cancer. >_> I'll give you ring if I manage it. Do remind me to bring the DVD, though, or I'll probably forget it.
Oct. 4th, 2007 07:06 am (UTC)
Yay clean bill of health! I'm glad to hear someone say that mammograms aren't as awful as people make them out to be, since I have to start mine earlier than most people thanks to a family history. I hit 35 this year, and need to do the evil mammogram thing as a result.

And I have to agree, the knowledge of being not-sad (or not-freaked or not-stressed [in my case, occasionally the knowledge that I can see out of both eyes]) is a self-supporting concept. Recognition of the lack of downer stuff makes it easier to stay up. Glad to hear you're experiencing that contrast.
Oct. 4th, 2007 07:22 am (UTC)
Thanks. ^_^ I really do recommend taking an NSAID like ibuprofen about 45 minutes before your appointment time. I'm sure it would have been a lot less comfortable without it. The techs were really nice, which always helps. Good luck.

BTW, it's great getting in touch with you again. I think the depression was part of the reason I didn't go to the reunion. D: At least I finally got around to helping myself.
Oct. 4th, 2007 02:52 pm (UTC)
*snarky warning*

Maybe you're pregnant??

My breasts were hard as rocks for like six weeks and incredibly painful. Not the most pleasant of experiences. =)
Oct. 4th, 2007 09:49 pm (UTC)
Haha! The radiology tech asked me if I might be pregnant and had me sign a waiver. I was amused. The U/S tech asked if the swelling is worse around my period. >_> Guess I'm passing okay. ~_^
Oct. 5th, 2007 06:32 pm (UTC)
I don't get it. ^_~
Oct. 4th, 2007 10:13 pm (UTC)
Are you still on hormones at all? Because now is the time for our little hormones to start changing again. The menopause before the peri-menopause. Heh. All sorts of wacky starts to happen and the breasticles can certainly become involved. Who knows what will happen with you should be be starting that sort of cycle, Miss Stupid I-Don't-Have-A-Period.
I hate you.
Oct. 4th, 2007 10:18 pm (UTC)
Aw, yeah, I can feel the love.

Well, I take the same dose every night, and it's the minimum dose available. That's why it freaked me out a bit. My doctor said that I might want to switch to a more human-analogous hormone like estriadol instead of the horse hormones. I said, "Neigh!" >_> *ducks* I'm sorry, that was too just there... If you'd prefer I didn't make puns you can equest that I don't.

*runs away* Bwahahahahahahaha!
Oct. 4th, 2007 11:14 pm (UTC)
Police! Police! Send her to the punitentiary!!!
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